Thursday, January 27, 2011

Status update

So, I normally don't blog about very personal stuff, partly because, hey, it's personal, and partly because for some reason it feels unlucky. And for a very long time, there wasn't much to write about. I've never been much of a dater and generally feel like being single is part of my nature. I mean, it does allow you to make entirely selfish decisions like "hey, I think I'm going to move to Australia" without having to take anyone else's wants or needs into account. But then I met someone and got into a relationship and I really liked that, too. We had fun, we traveled together, we moved in together, we talked, we laughed, and everything was great. Until it wasn't anymore. And now it's over. Although part of me knows it's for the best, another part of me can't help but succumb to that horrible habit of going through things over and over again in my mind, cataloging all of the things I could have said or done differently. In the end, the why and how of it doesn't really matter, and there's nothing like a Super Hit of the 70's to summarize a break-up.

11 comments:

Nitsirk said...

That stinks. Sorry to hear things didn't work out. Congrats on the award though, I saw that on FB. Look on the brighter side, at least you are missing all of this freakin' cold and snow. Reading about you being outside drinking cocktails sounded divine. It was -7 here yesterday morning. Hugs.

saraH said...

Aww, what a bummer! Break-ups suck no matter what. Hope you are feeling better about it soon!

Kris said...

I'm so sorry RT. Hugs.

Also, could you please explain to us laypeople what your fellowship actually means? USE SMALL WORDS. But I gather congratulations are in order?

Suldog said...

As Nitserk said, you're missing the most ridiculous winter here in a long, long time, so there's that to cheer you up :-)

*Long Distance Hug*

Andy said...

I wish I was there to see you. WE NEED TO SKYPE STAT. Love you so much!

Eri said...

Eileen! We are all here for you. Hang in there! P.S. Most of the time breakups are not because of anything one thing you said or did (unless we are talking about a Spitzer situation), so stop even thinking those thoughts...mmm-k? Chin up girl, stuff just happens :(. (Deep thoughts). Miss you!

Anonymous said...

A virtual hug for you:
{Eileen}

Which is not the emoticon ({})
I had to explain that one to my Dad the other day. Awkward.

- LisaKate

eileen said...

Thanks everyone for making me smile while I'm feeling mopey :)

Kevin said...

Sorry to hear the news, Eileen. I'm sure some other nice Aussie bloke will want you for his sheila.

KcM said...

Sorry to hear that. :( Hang in there, other fish in the sea, etc. etc.

big al said...

you're the bomb. nothing can mess with that. miss you!